Everything costs money.
You can easy spend $20-40k a year on 'lazy' meals - uber eats, cheeky friday night eats and drinks, etc.
Anyone here own a nice boat? Seeing girls is a cheap hobby compared to upkeep on a decent size boat.
Don't look back. If you could afford it at the time, smile at the memories and look forward. If you can't afford what you want to do, find a way to increase your income or make the sacrifices to do what gives you enjoyment.
I refuse to add what what I have spent on my hobby.