First sensual massage - review
Hi there guys, been on here for a while reading reviews/requests/recommendations from you all, and have occasionally posted asking for advice for what I should be doing for my first experience. Defo appreciated the inputs reading the threads and the answers whenever I had questions. Finally decided to take the leap and try out a sensual massage a few days ago and I'm glad I now have that experience.
Spent ages tiptoeing around idea of doing it, but ultimately a few days ago I was like fuck it why not see who's available in the evening and just give it a go. I've had pretty limited experiences with women over the last few years, and generally speaking part of the reason I want to try SM/punting is to get over some performance anxiety and nerves around sex etc while getting used to being around beautiful women. I do have a shortlist of SM workers and escorts I do wanna see in the future but I thought I'd try with someone I hadn't spent ages researching in case the first time with my preferences is a disappointment due to my own mental baggage.
Made a booking at Sensual Relax over the phone, the receptionist was really nice and was good at letting me know what I'd be in for as a first-timer, and admittedly I was a bit awkward but thanked her for relaying the info. Went over to SR at booking time, and headed over to the room and then bathroom. All showered and manicured, went into the room where I was greeted by the masseuse. I was polite and friendly, but again awkward just because I really didn't wanna come across as a pervert so I tried to be pretty upfront with her that I'm just happy to let her take the lead with whatever she's comfortable with and she appreciated that (I think haha). The SM provider I ended up getting ultimately was quite a bit older than advertised and what I had expected, and while her body was great she had fake tits which has never been a massive turn on for me, but I did my best to put those thoughts to the back of my mind.
Anyway, onto the massage. I tried talking to her about random things, my line of work, just general smalltalk kinda stuff to ease my nerves and I just let her get on with the massage, and as the session progressed I complimented what she was doing, and tried to say a couple of things here and there to build some sort of sexual chemistry/respectful flirting but I don't think we really clicked that much on that front either through my lack of charm/her not being super fluent in English. I'm fully aware that I've also not got a great body physique/build so maybe she was a bit disengaged, because I felt like I was face down for a major chunk of the massage where she only touched my dick a couple of times and I was struggling to get hard. And then when I was face up she didn't really offer to let me touch her body at all until the final 10-15minutes where she was trying to get me to finish.
Towards the end when she spent more time focusing more on the sexual part of the massage, I felt like I could get hard but it wouldn't stay, and ultimately I think I still had some inner nerves and tension still coarsing through my body - I reassured her it wasn't anything to do with her, and credit to her she tried her best to make me cum. We tried different positions, she even let me titfuck her, but I just couldn't stay hard long enough to finish or when I would be about to for some reason I'd psyche myself out. I could tell this was maybe irritating her for a bit despite her best efforts, but I assured her it's just something I need to work through and it's all good. I know these people are paid to be super nice to us and that its a simulated experience, but I appreciated her at the end saying that I shouldn't be so tough on myself, and that I just need experience, and she explained that she was trying hard to actually get me off since it was my first time and that I was more handsome than she expected. Taking those comments with a full tub of salt, but it defo got me out of my own head.
I know this is a wall of text, and very fair if you all roll your eyes reading through this passage describing my lack of confidence, but even though it didn't fully according to plan and that I didn't perform per se, I'm glad I gave it a shot. At least now I know what's in store when I give it a go again next time, and hopefully be a lot more relaxed before going in when paired up someone else/at a different agency. I defo have some things I have to work on for myself, and maybe the main discovery will be realising SM isn't for me - but the main thing is I tried something new and out of my comfort zone - and defo curious to see what else is out there!
Again, appreciate all of the activity on these forums, and it's good to know there's a space like this where I can freely discuss my experience.
Spent ages tiptoeing around idea of doing it, but ultimately a few days ago I was like fuck it why not see who's available in the evening and just give it a go. I've had pretty limited experiences with women over the last few years, and generally speaking part of the reason I want to try SM/punting is to get over some performance anxiety and nerves around sex etc while getting used to being around beautiful women. I do have a shortlist of SM workers and escorts I do wanna see in the future but I thought I'd try with someone I hadn't spent ages researching in case the first time with my preferences is a disappointment due to my own mental baggage.
Made a booking at Sensual Relax over the phone, the receptionist was really nice and was good at letting me know what I'd be in for as a first-timer, and admittedly I was a bit awkward but thanked her for relaying the info. Went over to SR at booking time, and headed over to the room and then bathroom. All showered and manicured, went into the room where I was greeted by the masseuse. I was polite and friendly, but again awkward just because I really didn't wanna come across as a pervert so I tried to be pretty upfront with her that I'm just happy to let her take the lead with whatever she's comfortable with and she appreciated that (I think haha). The SM provider I ended up getting ultimately was quite a bit older than advertised and what I had expected, and while her body was great she had fake tits which has never been a massive turn on for me, but I did my best to put those thoughts to the back of my mind.
Anyway, onto the massage. I tried talking to her about random things, my line of work, just general smalltalk kinda stuff to ease my nerves and I just let her get on with the massage, and as the session progressed I complimented what she was doing, and tried to say a couple of things here and there to build some sort of sexual chemistry/respectful flirting but I don't think we really clicked that much on that front either through my lack of charm/her not being super fluent in English. I'm fully aware that I've also not got a great body physique/build so maybe she was a bit disengaged, because I felt like I was face down for a major chunk of the massage where she only touched my dick a couple of times and I was struggling to get hard. And then when I was face up she didn't really offer to let me touch her body at all until the final 10-15minutes where she was trying to get me to finish.
Towards the end when she spent more time focusing more on the sexual part of the massage, I felt like I could get hard but it wouldn't stay, and ultimately I think I still had some inner nerves and tension still coarsing through my body - I reassured her it wasn't anything to do with her, and credit to her she tried her best to make me cum. We tried different positions, she even let me titfuck her, but I just couldn't stay hard long enough to finish or when I would be about to for some reason I'd psyche myself out. I could tell this was maybe irritating her for a bit despite her best efforts, but I assured her it's just something I need to work through and it's all good. I know these people are paid to be super nice to us and that its a simulated experience, but I appreciated her at the end saying that I shouldn't be so tough on myself, and that I just need experience, and she explained that she was trying hard to actually get me off since it was my first time and that I was more handsome than she expected. Taking those comments with a full tub of salt, but it defo got me out of my own head.
I know this is a wall of text, and very fair if you all roll your eyes reading through this passage describing my lack of confidence, but even though it didn't fully according to plan and that I didn't perform per se, I'm glad I gave it a shot. At least now I know what's in store when I give it a go again next time, and hopefully be a lot more relaxed before going in when paired up someone else/at a different agency. I defo have some things I have to work on for myself, and maybe the main discovery will be realising SM isn't for me - but the main thing is I tried something new and out of my comfort zone - and defo curious to see what else is out there!
Again, appreciate all of the activity on these forums, and it's good to know there's a space like this where I can freely discuss my experience.
